You've lost me before, now, and FOREVER...

No, I can't take one more step towards you

‘Cause all that's waiting is regret

(I'd already gave you a chance before, but you wasted it)

Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
(I'm no longer your guardian stalker, you're the one who lost it)

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time
(I nearly lost my mind when my friends laughed at me,

when I could forget you, you return ?)

[Chorus:]
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
(Don't you remember what you've done?

Then please don't come back for me)

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

(Eventhough you'd always search for me, I'm never go back to you)

I've learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time
(You tortured me until I lost hope, and now you want me back?)

[Chorus]

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
‘Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
(No need explanation here...)

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

(Don't you remember what you've done?

Then please don't come back for me)

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

(Three times.. Who do you think you are..?)

It's 24th of September . . . 2000 and eleven .

11.10am, Faten Deanna called me. .

I heard her crying over the phone and she asked me . . . .

"Why did this to me?" . . My answer was simple. . . Yet also agonizingly pain for any who read this . . . "Who did this to who? Don't you cry on me, remember when you secretly befriend with your ex, secretly met your ex, midnight and ONLY BOTH of you?? Who could know that on that time I was crying over for a stupid relationship."

Faten, you've wasted me by a very harsh doing . . Its not even my choice to be harsh now, again you said could we, us be together? Remember that day? We went out as ex's and watch movies? I ask you for the same question too. . Guess what your answer? Nahh, you won't remember it, you said that friend makes you happy. Thus you choose friend over me. It's okay. I could live with that.

Now I have my new heart-keeper, she's not like you at all. She faithful and she loves me. As I'm too. Please move on with your so-called 'friends'. Cause you're the one who said it, 'It does feels good with nobody controlling you'.

I'm not lost , I just didn't realize . . .

This story goes freaky a bit . . . .

It all started with just a phone call . . . . . . . Once before I'm a very happy person . . Lively to talk and also love to have companion . .

But lately , I can't have a conversation with any girls . . . Everytime I did that , I got very VERY drowsy and begging for sleep . . .

Not only that , when I met other girls also suddenly I got a severe headache(migrain) . . .

This seriously affects my life . . . . .

Till last night I called her , we discuss us , and strange , I'm okay . . . Then I realize . . . . It's not about what or whom else , is about me . . . I'm still in love with her . . . . . . With every second I live and breathing . . .

What happen . . . . . ?

I didn't why , after hang-out today , I got a really painful headache . . . .

Am I still bounded with my oath . . . ? );