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Saturday, June 16, 2012

Sadness . . . . .

Sadness . . .

Guessing why I'm writing a title about sadness . . . ?
Here I tell you a story about today . . .

      It's was a calm but busy Saturday . . . . Until when my work shift are about to end, I saw a picture of a guy. . What's wrong ? Nothing wrong with that picture . . . . Except for the comment of that picture . . . There I saw my girl's comment . . . . She complimented the guy that he's cute . . . I, of course get jealous . . Envy . . . But . . Who am I to jealous . . ? Of course, I am NOBODY to her . . . It's starting to get worse when her picture were liked by that guy and she was like "Hey, you like my pic?" . . . Damn . . . I've never be reply by her even if I liked ALL of her pictures . . . Which that I have ALREADY DID, tear my heart in such . . . . . PAIN . .

      When I was on my way back(I was on my bike), I thought about my love life . It's such . . . . . PATHETIC . NOTHING more worse than my sad dumb love life compare to ANYTHING else . . . I was riding at 110km/h nonstop at Jalan Kuching, the road was crowded with cars(because it's the time for everyone to get back home) . I didn't notice it until I took corner to the left, I somehow suddenly have a 'flu' . Then I realized . . . I was crying . . . . .

      I have a very fragile heart, but at the same time I also have a fierce-burning heart . . . Again, I saw my girl commented some of . . Wait, what the f***, she's not my girl . I don't have any . I'm the one who THOUGHT that I have a girl . I'm PATHETICALONERSTUPID IDIOT, UNWELCOME and I just DON'T DESERVE to have anyone . . . . Haaa . . I'm crying . . . . :'|

      Am I really will always and forever be sad like this ? Cursed to be NEVER be loved or cared to . . . What am I made for actually ? To be so PATHETIC like this ? For ETERNITY ? I seek for happiness . . . . And what have I found for the last SIX YEARS . . ? Sadness at all time . . . . . . . . . .

2 comments:

  1. sedih sungguh..rilex la.takkan takde pape yg leh buat ko ceria

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